My Real ME

I dont know whether this blog will b suddenly dissapear just like the other blog before…lets try!

Again, still discussin bout friendship…this one is bout my old close-friend. he came to me in anger : "she left me!"

"Who ? Your gal ?"

"Nope…my bestfriend. I dont know why. but she suddenly left me without saying anything. even i dont know if i made mistakes. she left me when i needed her so bad. i hav troubles n i need someone 2share. i hav tears n i need shoulders. but it seemed that she didnt even care with me…!"

"mayb u made mistakes…"

"I DONT KNOW. SHE EVEN DIDNT TELL ME !"

Again, i didnt say anything except asked him to have a positive thinking. They’re on a warm friendship for more than five years. They’re not a couple, they’re friends. n for us (me n him) a friend should tell dtruth each other. even if its painful. but dunno if others hav other comments on friendship.

Again, i just tell him that he absolutely could pass it. try to convince him that his bestfriend didnt leave him. i said, its not easy to leave or broke a relationship, both love or friendship. i said, mayb she had problems needed 2b solved first. i said, mayb she didnt understand that he needed her so bad. i said, mayb shes busy with somethin that impossible 2b left..n i said more…n more

hope it will calm him down…

but finally, i told him that he surely could stand on his own feet. it didnt mean he didnt need his pals..but i think humans hav this ability as a gift to stand still.i said, God will never give us such a kind of hard troubles if we cant solve them. its true we hav friends, but dont make friends as your only one shoulders 2cry on. you hav yourself…deep inside.

i think he did calm down.

but then he said. "You are right TA! i can stand on my own feet.i think i can accept this. maybe she didnt leave me at all. mayb its just dcondition. but i think friendship is a kind of a curve. its fluctuative. sometimes its high n make us warm but other times it down n make us sad. so its FLUCTUATIVE !

well, i never told him bout my thought that friendship is a fluctuative ones. it suddenly came out from his mouth!

Dunno this kind of thought is true or not. but i think, we need to enjoy our friendship while it high or while it down. its something precious as a lesson learned that our trully really bestfriend is the Almighty…as He could never leave us on every kind of situation n condition…

^_^

Nyambung blog sebelumnya…

sebenarnya kejam banget kalo aku bilang temen itu fluktuatif. temenku, eva, dia bilang friend is forever. aku bilang, friends would b forever, but the condition can make it NOT forever…

bukannya tanpa alasan aku bilang temen itu fluktuatif…

beberapa minggu lalu aku harus pergi ke suatu kota yg cukup jauh-lah untuk ukuranku. dan kebetulan aku punya temen yang tinggal di sana. kebetulan cuma dia satu-satunya temenku yg ada di sana. nah, mengingat hubungan kami teramat sangat baik, aku kasih kabar donk ke dia kalo aku mo kesana. tentu aja aku curious coz aku lom pernah ke kota itu sebelumnya. jadi aku pengen tau kayak apa sih kotanya, dingin ato panas ? sepi apa rame ? enak nggak buat jalan-jalan ?

jadi aku semangat banget pengen nyari info dari si temenku itu. hampir tiap hari aku telpon dia…eh nggak pernah diangkat. sms, nggak pernah dibales… lama-lama aku curiga, jangan2 dia punya pikiran macem2 nih ma aku. berhubung gender kita beda. he’s from mars n im venus…mungkin kondisi itu yg bikin beda juga.

yang aku nggak ngerti, kami itu berteman baik sekali. 3 tahun lebih saling bertukar pikiran, share, discuss everything…n i feel that i know him well, n he knows me well too. kami selalu terus terang dalam banyak hal, kalo nggak suka bilang nggak…frankly.   

well, friend…if u hear me… aku telpon kamu kayak debt collector waktu itu bukan karna apa-apa. i just want to know the city, is that cold, warm, friendly, not boring or what ? aku nggak bakal kok ngeganggu kamu dg minta dianterin ke sana sini…ato minta dicariin hotel…ato minta apapun dari kamu. even kita nggak perlu ketemuan sama sekali i will b ok with that..

jadi ya, saat itu aku malah nggak ketemuan ma dia. lha wong semuanya udah di-arrange ma kantor. mulai dari hotel, transport, apapun deh itu. jadi aku nggak ngrepotin siapapun.n aku menikmati kota itu dg amat enjoy hehe…aduh fren…fren… takut amat sih hehe

geli banget rasanya inget hal ini. tapi back 2 fluctuative ? bener nggak sih ?